Why God? Why?
Petey has died.
When I came home yesterday, I noticed an odd smell - I chalked it up to my not being able to clean house during my forced vacation - though I have cleaned since then, occasionally a stray odor will surface.
This morning, I went into the basement to check my pets down there (assorted fish & snakes), and found he had died during the night. What I smelled, I think, was his impending death - he appeared fine earlier. I wish I had known - was there anything I could have done?? :(
He had been off his feeding schedule lately, though I hadn't worried, as he's done this before, and always started eating again before long. This time, it appears he had weakened too much, and the strain got to him - that's my best guess.
For this, I will blame Shawano County law officials, most notably Catharine D. White (assistant District Attorney), John (Jack) Bartholomew (my (ineffective) attorney), and Judge James Habeck.
Oh, sure, you will say, I must have done something horribly bad, and they were only doing there job. No, the prosecutor & judge were against me from the start, making a mountain of a molehill, and my attorney barely lifted a finger (said he couldn't make headway against the prosecutors, but I know he could have tried harder).
I've talked to numerous people (yes, they were on my side of the law, but...) who said any other county would have done little more than give me a "slap on the wrist", rather than the jail time & license revocation I received. One fellow told me of a friend who committed a crime much more pronounced than mine, and only received $800 in fines (in another county) - my attorney admitted I would have received very little punishment in another court.
Because of their sentencing, I was unable to care for my snakes the way they had become accustomed to, and Petey, being more sensitive than my others, picked up on that, and became stressed out & stopped eating. I wonder if he picked up any stress from me - I know I'm not without fault here.
I am so angry right now, both with myself for not picking up on the signs, trying to force feed him, take him to a veterinarian, etc.; with the law (I pray to God He'll calm me, and not let me do anything rash); and with the way my problems had to carry over to my pets. I thought this was all behind me, but I guess there are still lessons to learn, or maybe this is part of this damn fallen world we've made for ourselves here.
Well, I need to get to work - maybe that will preoccupy my mind from this crap.
I apologize for the strong language - that's only the tip of what's running through my mind :'(
When I came home yesterday, I noticed an odd smell - I chalked it up to my not being able to clean house during my forced vacation - though I have cleaned since then, occasionally a stray odor will surface.
This morning, I went into the basement to check my pets down there (assorted fish & snakes), and found he had died during the night. What I smelled, I think, was his impending death - he appeared fine earlier. I wish I had known - was there anything I could have done?? :(
He had been off his feeding schedule lately, though I hadn't worried, as he's done this before, and always started eating again before long. This time, it appears he had weakened too much, and the strain got to him - that's my best guess.
For this, I will blame Shawano County law officials, most notably Catharine D. White (assistant District Attorney), John (Jack) Bartholomew (my (ineffective) attorney), and Judge James Habeck.
Oh, sure, you will say, I must have done something horribly bad, and they were only doing there job. No, the prosecutor & judge were against me from the start, making a mountain of a molehill, and my attorney barely lifted a finger (said he couldn't make headway against the prosecutors, but I know he could have tried harder).
I've talked to numerous people (yes, they were on my side of the law, but...) who said any other county would have done little more than give me a "slap on the wrist", rather than the jail time & license revocation I received. One fellow told me of a friend who committed a crime much more pronounced than mine, and only received $800 in fines (in another county) - my attorney admitted I would have received very little punishment in another court.
Because of their sentencing, I was unable to care for my snakes the way they had become accustomed to, and Petey, being more sensitive than my others, picked up on that, and became stressed out & stopped eating. I wonder if he picked up any stress from me - I know I'm not without fault here.
I am so angry right now, both with myself for not picking up on the signs, trying to force feed him, take him to a veterinarian, etc.; with the law (I pray to God He'll calm me, and not let me do anything rash); and with the way my problems had to carry over to my pets. I thought this was all behind me, but I guess there are still lessons to learn, or maybe this is part of this damn fallen world we've made for ourselves here.
Well, I need to get to work - maybe that will preoccupy my mind from this crap.
I apologize for the strong language - that's only the tip of what's running through my mind :'(
posted by elye tirvare | 4:37 AM
2 Comments:
Hey there! I hope I am the FIRST person to comment on your blog :) Thank you for the birthday wishes (and teases :) I did not see it earlier, probably because the ISP was late at updating their caches :(
I am sorry about Petey... I hope you'd recover from the pain soon. Cheer up soon, ok? I'd be praying for you till you feel better. Take care, always! God bless!
Thanks, Princess Twinkies!
Thank you for the #1 comment, the prayers, and the well-wishes!
Teases?? I do love your smiles in return - that's why!
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