I feel better today!
Yesterday, I felt like a character in a Frank Peretti novel - I was discouraged & lonely & tempted to think and/or do all sorts of bad things. I could just imagine demons swirling around me, swatting away angels who may have been trying to give me good thoughts & bright spots. Cackling laughs kept popping into my head - I certainly hope that was just my overactive imagination.
It's probably that I'm still suffering aftereffects of my forced "vacation", not to mention still dealing with my pets' deaths - this will get easier.
Today was evidence of that.
It was a cold, cloudy day, but I had a warm comfy jacket to wear. I got all my work done, though I ended up working through lunch hour. I got paid by two jobs today, so I've got extra money (to pay bills with :S).
Tomorrow a friend is coming over, and we will talk about some problems we've been having in getting along. I've put off talking to her, not wanting to hurt her feelings, but I think it's time. I think she has the wrong impression of me, and I need to fix that.
It's really been getting to me lately, and today, after we talked a bit on the phone, I felt more peaceful than I have in a while.
I also heard a radio ad that a company nearby is hiring. I checked out their website, and it looks promising. It seems to have tons of potential, and though it would be a change of profession for me, it would be easier on my getting-older-every-day body, and could perhaps exceed my current income. I've got an "assessment" scheduled in a couple weeks, so I will get my questions answered there & then. I've decided to start exploring my options sooner, rather than later.
Thank you God, for sticking with me.
I appreciate the doors You have opened, and the doors & windows to come.
Now I just need some continuous pushing through those openings!!!
listening to:
Better Than Ezra - Felt Like a Lifetime
Anadara - Go
Alice in Chains - Heaven Beside You
sonicflooD - Trading My Sorrows
p.s., I figured out how to add a song at a time to my myspace profile... so, check it out sometime (and keep checking back, as I'm sure I'll want to add others :) )
Now I'm off to work all night to free up time for tomorrow... wish me luck
It's probably that I'm still suffering aftereffects of my forced "vacation", not to mention still dealing with my pets' deaths - this will get easier.
Today was evidence of that.
It was a cold, cloudy day, but I had a warm comfy jacket to wear. I got all my work done, though I ended up working through lunch hour. I got paid by two jobs today, so I've got extra money (to pay bills with :S).
Tomorrow a friend is coming over, and we will talk about some problems we've been having in getting along. I've put off talking to her, not wanting to hurt her feelings, but I think it's time. I think she has the wrong impression of me, and I need to fix that.
It's really been getting to me lately, and today, after we talked a bit on the phone, I felt more peaceful than I have in a while.
I also heard a radio ad that a company nearby is hiring. I checked out their website, and it looks promising. It seems to have tons of potential, and though it would be a change of profession for me, it would be easier on my getting-older-every-day body, and could perhaps exceed my current income. I've got an "assessment" scheduled in a couple weeks, so I will get my questions answered there & then. I've decided to start exploring my options sooner, rather than later.
Thank you God, for sticking with me.
I appreciate the doors You have opened, and the doors & windows to come.
Now I just need some continuous pushing through those openings!!!
listening to:
Better Than Ezra - Felt Like a Lifetime
Anadara - Go
Alice in Chains - Heaven Beside You
sonicflooD - Trading My Sorrows
p.s., I figured out how to add a song at a time to my myspace profile... so, check it out sometime (and keep checking back, as I'm sure I'll want to add others :) )
Now I'm off to work all night to free up time for tomorrow... wish me luck
posted by elye tirvare | 3:29 PM
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