Excitement turned to discomfiture.

How quickly emotions can change - one moment, joy at seeing that familiar email address.

Mere seconds later, a sinking feeling in the pit of the stomach, followed by dejection.

Culture clash? Maybe.
Misunderstandings? Perhaps.
Something else? I know not.

My mind has frozen. I can't think of words, much less how to describe what I'm feeling.

Weeks of preparation, searching, planning, and yes, some doubt (apparently well-founded) lead to well, wanting to curl up & cry a little.

Endless apologies for an extremely unintended result. Not what I had hoped for at all.

Perhaps work will clear my head. I will return to writing when able...

:'(