After walking all last week, and all the other stuff that went on, I was dead-tired yesterday. I came home, grabbed a bite to eat after checking my email & stuff, and promptly dozed off. Well, I have alarms permanently set on my
cellphone, but they won't ring if the battery runs out of juice!
As a result, I woke up just after 4am, rushed over to Lee Beverage, and finished up shortly before 7am. When I'm not done by 6am there, the woman who takes inventory every morning is delayed, and the manager is understandably concerned. He appreciates the quality of work I do, even tells the other guys they should load pallets the way I do, and doesn't say much to me, which I am very grateful for.
Anyway, I had most of the loading done by 6, so the inventory was only started 15 minutes late or so.
I had left my dead phone at home, and didn't dare return home this morning to retrieve it. Upon starting it up this noon, I discovered several voicemails & text message - from a friend. "Worried sick" (not to mention quite pissed off), she'd called, and called, and texted. Perhaps she thought that would turn my phone on?
I suppose now I have to answer every time she calls or risk her wrath again. She knows Mondays (and Tuesday mornings) are the worst time of the week for me, due to my work schedule. This is really getting tiresome - not how a friendship should be (let alone a "relationship").
So, I think I need to start using some sort of sleep aid to get my body back to "normal" resting hours. I know part of my problem is waking up in the middle of the night.
I'm sure one of the reasons is that I've been working so much for years now. My body doesn't know when it's supposed to be resting or awake, and wakes me up at all hours to play it safe. I feel tired from late morning 'til late afternoon, then wake up for a bit, then feel sleepy again, due to being awake & tired for so long.
I dread the thought, but perhaps I should get a 3rd shift job, so I can work when I am normally awake, and sleep when I'm feeling tired.
On the
radio this morning I
heard some reasons that will send a person to an early grave - I'm practicing several of them (not willingly, of course)! I know I need to change things, but I'm in a rut I can't just hop out of. On another radio program I heard about a
company that somehow scans a person's brain waves, changes them into music, and puts it on a CD. One track will put that particular person to sleep, while the other will wake them up (not sure if it's from a sound sleep, or just make them more alert). I suppose the wake-up selection could be set on a timer - to play instead of an alarm clock. The catch? Oh yes - it cost $550 to have your very own personal brain-wave music!
I think I will get a new alarm clock for starters. Maybe two.
[A side note= Do they make alarm clocks without snooze buttons, or without off switches? I think it would help people wake up if they actually had to unplug the alarm, or maybe enter their password to disable the alarm...]
I need to start eating better & more regularly.
Where possible (and still allowing for computer time) I need to attempt consistant sleep hours.
Perhaps it's the stress of what happened a year ago that's eating me, too.
Whatever it is, I pray that soon I'll overcome it, and not give my employers & others cause for grief.
