Instead of resting...

Well, today I slept in 'til 8:30am (unintentionally). I think I should get a job working nights, or at least 2nd shift!
When I finished work, I intended to come home, eat, and go to bed, so that I could start early tomorrow (and finish early).

But, now I have finished my application to work in customer service in Green Bay - a job with advancement potential, not to mention easier work (sitting down, talking on a phone & typing on a computer). I like working outside, but it does take its toll.
That took me a while, as my computer froze up, my trackball stopped working, and my cable internet connection failed. I was able to fix/work around the problems, but all the difficulties made me begin to think I wasn't supposed to submit the application!! However, it is done, and I will await the interview with hope & prayer. If this doesn't lead somewhere, at least I am trying to better my lot in life.

Then I worked on my microwave. I took it apart the other day,and was able to "jury-rig" some sensors in order to get it working again (it was shutting off or blowing the internal circuit breaker after only a few seconds (or milliseconds) of use).
I used it for lunch the other day, and afterwards, it quit entirely.
I took it apart, determined the circuit board was to blame, and spent perhaps hours (while doing other things) searching for a replacement part. Needless to say, I couldn't find one, though similar printed circuit boards (PCBs, which totally screwed up search results, as you can imagine!) ranged in price from $99-$156!!! An entire new microwave would be less expensive!!
I will check with some local repair shops - maybe I can find the part I need. Another option is to find a used microwave that I can scrounge the part from. I hate to toss the rest of the microwave, or buy a new one, when there is only one non-working part!

Fortunately, I was able to keep busy enough with things that my mind didn't wander off much, so now I am in decent spirits as I head to bed, but still...

listening to...

Rebecca St. James - Wait For Me
Mary J. Blige - Be Without You
The Postal Service - Be Still My Heart
The Cranberries - Linger
Jesus and Mary Chain - Just Like Honey
Death In Vegas - Girls

On being alone

Been turning this over & over in my mind since reading another blog, so, to get it out of my head for a bit, here are my ponderings & conclusions...

It's been bothering me for the better part of a year now - my single status.
All around I hear of people dating, hooking up, getting married, being married - I don't think I know any single people, actually - and I am by myself.

For several years, I was perfectly fine with being alone, and dying alone. I occupied myself with work & pets, movies & music, and was content for the most part - probably because I've had possibilities prove to be misplaced priorities, false hopes, or... just not possible. I've grown up fairly isolated, so I've pretty much taken it for granted that I'd be alone anyway.

But the wishing has crept back from time to time and though God has kept teaching me to trust Him, I still wonder...
Am I seeing more of what He has for me, am I merely second-guessing Him, or am I just letting the doubt & longing get the better of me?

I WANT TO TRUST HIM, BUT IT'S FRUSTRATING SOMETIMES!!!

I've got my hopes set high - set on God having my best in mind.
Whether I end up with the perfect person for me,
or "alone" - relying on Him, I'm committed to following His plan as it's revealed to me.
Sure I get depressed. Even though I have God, friends, and family, "man was not meant to be alone" (I wonder if that applies to women?), and sometimes, I think it would be nice to have a special someone.
But, I do not, and when the longing passes, I realize God has a purpose, and perhaps, a lesson for me. He will show me more when the time is right - when I am ready.

I just hope it's sooner, rather than later...

listening to...

Rebecca St. James - God Help Me
downhere - Surrender
John Lennon - Real Love
Emi Fujita - Wishes & Moon River :D

Am I a Neo-Luddite??

Maybe just a procrastinator - maybe now that I have main control of my life & which direction it takes, I take comfort in the same-ness of day-to-day living.
I only hooked up my DVD player (from Christmas '04) a couple months ago, I still have my VCR for recording (though I do own a DVR recorder with an HD, but still in its box), I still use a TV antenna for catching broadcast signals, and I drive an '83 car & a '90 car. I'm sure there are others, I forget now.

It's not that I dislike technology, and it's not that I am unfamiliar with it, either. Most people ask me when they have "techie" questions, though I am first to admit I know only enough to get by (so it seems to me anyhow).
I am quick enough to learn as well, and enjoy discovering new things...
Well, I am too self-analyzing. I know that. :)

So, Monday was a wonderful day - everything seemed to be part of a movie. Everything flowed seamlessly together, everything went well.
Tuesday I was worn out, so the day dragged on, and I arrived home after work, ate a small bag of chips on my way to my bed, and crashed.
Yesterday was a nice day, and though I only got a couple hours' sleep, that's all I needed. I'm bright & alert today.
Went out for coffee (though I don't normally drink - I'm a social drinker ;) ) with a co-worker, and then to the video rental store to discuss movies for another hour or two. Got home about 11pm, then fed my pets, and chatted over several hours with Ms. Bright Spot :) Always nice to catch up!

Well, that's all for now - can't be late to work (good thing I live 3 minutes away)

listening to

Tom Petty - Yer so Bad...

lucky guy...

Tired & happy!

Yep, another weekend done...

Started a bit late since I was a bit worn out from yesterday, but being in between holidays, and not having any big sales around town, business was rather slow. I got to my last stop, feeling pretty worn out, only to find the forklift was broken!!
I had several pallets of soda that were stacked on top of each other, so they had to stay that way! I worked through the two that weren't stacked, did a little shopping, and drove home.

One cool little bright spot at Pick 'n Save - I got some dryer/fabric softener sheets, a box of tissues, some lunchmeat (rotisserie chicken & honey turkey) and then I felt like buying a doughnut to eat on the way home. As I walked towards the bakery display, I decided I'd like a lemon-filled pastry with white frosting, and as there weren't many left, the worker had put most of the pastries on a couple trays. I grabbed one that had white frosting, and as I bit into it on my way home... it was lemon-flavored!! :)

A friend loaned me some of her kids' DVDs to watch - Spanglish (we watched yesterday), Finding Forrester, & Finding Neverland. I'm a Johnny Depp fan, so I'd been wanting to see that last one...
So I'll save some money from not paying to rent DVDs from the video store... cool.

Well, time to calculate my hours from the weekend's work, to turn in for payment :)
I'll start (no guarantees I'll finish it on the first sit-down :) ) watching Finding Neverland, and then get to bed.
Thank God for a warm bed & a comfortable bed to sleep in - it's about 15 degrees outside!!! (about -10C! *brrrrrr* :) )



listening to...

Old Time Radio on a local public radio station
and Patty Griffin - Moon River