Thoughts in my head: 2007-07-29

Well, things have settled down a tiny bit since my last post - I don't know where things will lead, but I have at least reached a small decision. In order to avoid problems in the future, I will not leave so obvious an online trail. Who knew it could be such a problem? I guess it's not really my fault - I tried to be accomodating, and look where it led. Enough on that subject - it's not worth dwelling on anymore.

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So, back to the original purpose of this post...the Cup o' Joy is having its annual benefit concert this October, and Sarah Kelly will be there! Oh yeah, so will Randy Stonehill (wow, that takes me back!), and that guitar-slapping, string-snapping Keith Cooper-from-last-year will be there as well.

Now that I'm driving again (I'm still a bit in shock!) I definately plan on going. I have thoughts of asking my father to go (I had to turn him down on an invite (again to the Cup) last night as I'd worked days & evenings all week and last week, and was really behind on chores (not to mention worn out from "....")), and perhaps if things have evened out by then, I'll invite that friend of mine. Then my dad can talk to her about nutrition and give her advice on how to live every cotton-picking aspect of her life (or would that be waaaay too cruel?? :) ).

Anyway, time to start another work day, I suppose... I do hope I'm not back to not being able to sleep/waking up at odd times all night long :( I don't have the same options for filling my time that I used to have, so I become bored & frustrated. (apologies for the sentence structure)

So, the other day I see a post in an online reptile forum I belong to. It says something about a genetics chart. I'm always interested in that stuff, so I clicked on it to see what I could learn. It turned out to be something I've seen before (actually from the website I moderate forums on), so I commented "Haha - I know where you got that!" I was just joking around with the guy, as in "Hey, I've seen that before *wink*". I also commented to some other people who informed the poster that the chart & info were way over their heads "Sorry guys, I've read entire books on the subject and that info is just the beginning!"
Well, the owner/administrator of the site posted a rather chiding post, which I considered responding to while working over the weekend. See, I know the guy - he used to belong to the forums I moderate in (he's a former moderator). I think he got fed up with the lack of activity there & started his own, and has a bit of a club situation going on. Well, when forum #1 slacked off, I joined forum #2, and enjoyed helping people out, as well as hob-nobbing with a lot of the former F1 members. I never expected to be part of the clique, but it was nice to talk with people I know there and see how their pets were doing and also have my questions answered (I'll be the first to admit I don't know it all).
Then, the guy who started the thread posted "Haha, I already said where I got it". Sure enough, at the end he had posted a location (though it wasn't where the breakdown of simple heredity originated). Once I recognized it, I had scrolled down & missed that part.
Then I noticed I had a private message from the same guy - it was a little nasty, telling me how he thought I was a nice guy, but I was only trying to "one up" him. There was more, but it doesn't bear repeating.
I did want to "tear him a new one", but refrained, instead telling him he was free to think whatever he chose about me, but his opinion of me was not grounded in fact - that I had no intention of seeming antagonistic.
I then reworded my original post, and also attempted to clear up the obvious misconceptions in a followup post.
The owner followed that with a reply, thanking me for clearing that up, and admitting it was easy to misjudge someone from online postings. He agreed with my comments, but it was all too wishy-washy for me to take it frankly & seriously.
The other guy pm'ed me again, saying he did think it was strange that I posted such a comment, since I'm not like that online, and then the real reason for the hubbub became known - another member of F1 (now the VP, caretaker, and one of the administrators) had posted a similar comment that had been deleted by an F2 moderator (obviously it was argumentative - the guy is known for such typed comments). The fellow also pm'ed that he hoped this would not come between us, as he thought I had a lot of insight & helpful advice in the forums, and he enjoyed learning from my comments.

He also pm'ed me in the F1 forums, asking me to check my messages in F2. I replied that I had received his message, and thanked him.

After a lot of thought today, however, I have modified my preferences on F2, logged off, and do not plan to revisit any time soon (or at all).
I am much too busy to be dealing with hot-heads who jump to erroneous & atypical judgements of my character and intent. I am stressed enough without putting myself at the mercy of people who, for some time I have felt, have resented or at least been skeptical of my presence in F2, considering my position in F1.

I'll admit I should have chosen my words more carefully, but it was such a huge leap from ALL my previous posts to assume that I was being accusational & argumentative.

*sigh* So much for belonging.

listening to...

Shawn Colvin - Round of Blues
Leigh Nash - Just A Little

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On A Lighter Note

Following that drama, I drowned my sorrows in LOLcatz (and other LOLcritterz)
Here are a few that did me good...